Amy Callaway.....Labor and Delivery RN

YAY!!! I get to report that I am going to be a Labor and Delivery nurse!! My dream is starting to come true!! I am SO incredibly excited! I thought it might be at least a week (if not 2) before I would be posting that I heard anything back, but they called me today with a job offer! I had actually not been home long from work ( I got off early today around 11), I heard the house phone ring, but didn't answer it and then heard the lady leaving a message, so I quickly ran to pick up the phone. I ended up talking with her for a while and she eventually told me that the manager was very interested in me and wanted offer me the job! This is such an awesome birthday present! I can't stop smiling when I think about it! I am not sure when I will start yet, I have to talk with my current manager on Monday. I could either start February 9th (a week from now) or February 23rd. I don't mind working a months notice (like you're supposed to do in the health field), BUT I don't see why my manager would want to continue to pay an extra person (basically) since I am still in training, so she may just tell me not to worry about working a notice and I may be starting in a week! I will definately let you know and keep you updated on how things are going, but just wanted to let you know that I got the job and I can't believe how quickly it all happend. It really makes me feel like this is what God wants for me right now and this is all part of His plan for my life.

Interview Update!

Ok..so..I went to the interview this morning, and it went GREAT!!! What a great birthday present! I was so excited about the interview (and a little nervous, as always!) but it went so well and the manager, Kristi was so incredibly nice. She made the interview feel so much more laid back and just made me feel more comfortable. I feel like I answered her questions with ease and everything just went very smooth. Although she only has night positions available right now, she said that when I started, I could go ahead and put my request in for day shift, but she said I may end up liking nights and also it pays $4.00 more an hour b/c of "shift diff". There are alot of perks to the job although the main drawback is that it is a 45 min. drive which kinda stinks, BUT I really think I could handle it since this is what I have always wanted to do. I think it would make the drive worthwhile. Sure, there will be days that I am going to HATE driving esp. when I'm tired, but I will be going to work to help bring life into the world!! Isn't that awesome?!?! She showed me around the unit and introduced me to some of the staff and they all seemed wonderful and the unit is incredibly NICE. I was very impressed. Lots of state of the art equipment, nice decor etc. I should be getting a call from HR soon, and I hope its soon b/c I want to get all this straightened out (esp. for insurance purposes). Thanks so much for all your prayers and I will keep you updated!

Job Update!....Yay! (I think)

I wanted to give a quick update. I have actually been in contact with a long lost friend Amy Bobo who recently finished nursing school and got a job at Baptist East in Montgomery on Labor and Delivery. She mentioned to me that they had more openings and any of you who know me, know that L&D is what I have ALWAYS wanted to do since I was in nursing school. I just haven't been able to find the right job. I also hated the fact that I JUST took this other job in December. I would hate the fact of leaving it SO soon, BUT after talking with Amy some about the unit and the people, I decided to go ahead and put in an application online. She actually talked with her manager about me and I got a call just a few minutes ago (from the manager of the L&D unit) and I am going in for an interview tomorrow morning!!! WOW! I can't believe it! I really hope it works out! I know the drive to Montgomery will be long and I may end up on a night shift BUT the good thing is, is that it will help me to get the experience I need in order to one day get a job at EAMC. I have actually interviewed with the manager at EAMC before and she really wants someone to have experience before she hires them, so I think this job may be good for me. Plus it will be three 12 hr. shifts which is long, but most hospitals are doing 12 hr shifts now. So, anyways..that's the update. I am really gonna hate to leave my new job at the dialysis clinic so soon IF this job works out, BUT in the long run, I have to do what's best for me and what is going to make me happy. Working in dialysis is ok, but it's just ok for me. It doesn't really make my heart smile the way I know helping deliver babies would. Don't get me wrong, I am a nurse and I take care of people, that's what I like to do. Knowing that I am making someone else feel better is so rewarding but I believe God calls each and every one of us to do something and I have always felt not only was nursing my calling, but L&D was my calling. There is just something about it and just....ahh....gives me such a satisfaction. It's a wonderful feeling. Plus you are getting to witness a miracle everyday! How cool is that?! So, anyways..I will be quiet now and let you know how the interview goes and what happens! Keep me in your prayers! :)

Stinking Thinking...uh!.....and Auburn Road

Well since a couple of you liked my last post from my "attitude" book, I decided to post another. Honestly, I probably should just read this book again because my attitude REALLY stinks these days! I am realizing it more and more! Maybe that's what God is trying to show me here. Maybe he is trying to point out to me how much I am complaining and how I don't need to do that so much. Last night I went out to see my fellow friends Auburn Road (Wil Anderson, Adam Romito, John Clifton, Josh Adams, Kent Braswell) and they rocked! I absolutely loved them!! It was my first time hearing them and they really were awesome!
Auburn Road!!

Maria, Jill, Me and Jami

Wil rockin' it out on the drums!


Even after a LONG day at work it was great to just be around friends and laugh and have a good time and see people that I haven't seen in a while. Let me tell you, anytime you go somewhere that involves people from Opelika, it's going to be a big reunion. I saw so many people that I haven't seen in a while and everyone would ask how I was doing and what I had been up to and that's what made me realize that I didn't have a very good "Attitude" especially about my current job. And I am just going to be honest....I hate it. I have to get up at 3 am every morning rush to pull my hair back, put on a little make-up, throw my clothes on, get my food ready for lunch, make my coffee, brush my teeth and head out the door in 30 minutes to make the 25 min drive to work and make it there by 4 am (5 am Valley time). I work 10 hours, sometimes a little longer, am on my feet the entire time, come home, rest for a little bit, eat dinner, take a shower, dry my hair, then get in bed around 7:30-8 and do the same thing the next day. Mind you, I do get 2 days off a week, but one of those days is Saturday. I have to work every other Saturday and I am just exhausted all the time and I JUST took this job in December and really started working beginning of January b/c of all the training. I hate to quit so soon, but I hate this routine and being so incredibly tired that I have no time for me, my family or my friends! Am I complaining at all?!!? JUST A LITTLE!!! AHHH!!! This book talks about howcomplaining is a sin (never thought of it that way). It says that sin literally means "missing the mark; failing in regards to God's holy standards". We may not think we are actually hurting anybody like committing a sin (murder, stealing, lying etc) would, but actually we are hurting ourselves. Our complaints lead to bitterness, anger and even depression. God loves us and doesn't want us to hurt, so when we hurt ourselves we are hurting him. The book says "God is directly affected when /he hears our complaining and wrong attitudes because complaining questions God's sovereignty" It's kind of like saying "God you blew it! Nice try God--close, but not close enough!" In addition to that, he says we hurt others around us with our "stinking thinking" (just like I did last night probably!!) We are doing nothing but bringing them down as well. He says, "complaining is expressing dissatisfaction with a circumstance that is not wrong and about which I'm doing nothing to correct". I have been completely honest w/myself in that I realize I took this job out of desperation to get away from my other job. I guess it's true that sometimes pastures aren't always greener on the other side. But is it my fault? I mean, I guess it is b/c it was MY choice. But why stay unhappy? Would God want that for me? I mean maybe so. That's what I'm trying to figure out. BUT I could do something to correct it. I could try to find something else. I just don't know that I could change my attitude and be excited about getting up at 3 am and being tired all the time. The Bible says, "In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you" 1 Thess 5:18. I know I should stop complaining and just be thankful that in this horrible economy we have that I even have a job. Sorry if I have infected you with my "stinking thinking".....hopefully you got something out of this!

A Little Attitude Adjustment....and Keeping Miles!

Before I get to my "attitude adjustment" portion of my blog, I want to start off my saying that I got to keep Miles (Lee and Kyle's baby boy) yesterday for a couple hours while Lee went to the doctor and I loved it! He was wonderful! He is the best baby! So sweet and tiny and perfect! God is so good when he blesses someone with children. It was the first time I got to meet Miles because Lee has had a rough time since she has given birth, but she has such a great ATTITUDE about it all!

Ok...now for my "attitude" portion. Last summer I was in a bible study and we were doing a book called "Lord, Change My Attitude Before it's Too Late" (James MacDonald).I absolutely LOVED it! It was a great study for me to do because my attitude is definitely something that needs working on, on a daily basis. It's funny but I had forgotten about that book until this morning. I saw it on the book shelf and picked it up. I began to look through it because anytime I read I always underline, circle, highlight or star anything that jumps off the page at me, or speaks to me. Let me tell you, this book had lots of pen markings. So I decided to look back through the book and read everything I had marked. Lately, I have felt like my attitude, just about everything sorta stinks and it's affecting me daily. And let me be the first to say, it doesn't make for a very good day either. There are several chapters in this book, but today one that stood out to me most was the one on a Covetous attitude and then how to replace it with an attitude of contentment. I think, especially in our world today in which people place such high regard on materialistic "things" and how high you can make it up the ladder, it puts people in a position of wanting more. And I think (like the book says) it only sets people up for a let-down. Just bear with me for a few because if you read this, you may be blessed too! It may just be what you needed to hear as well.

In Numbers 11:16-20 it says, "Say to the people, 'Consecrate yourselves for tomorrow, and you shall eat meat; for you have wept in the ears of the Lord, saying, "oh that someone would give us meat to eat! For we were well off in Egypt." Therefore the Lord will give you meat and you shall eat" (v.18) The book says, to paraphrase what God is saying "You want meat? you want something to eat? Is that better than Me? You think food is going to meet all your needs? You think THAT is going to make you happy? Really? Then you shall have it!" and He gave it to them "Therefore the Lord will give you meat and you shall eat. You shall eat, not one day, nor two days, nor five days, nor ten days, nor twenty days, but a whole month." (v. 18-20). So here we see that God was giving them what they had been wanting, what they had been complaining about wanting. But that doesn't mean it was a good thing. He was doing it to teach them a lesson. In Psalm 106:15, His action is mentioned as well as the consequence that came later "He gave them their request, but sent leanness into their soul." Once He gave them what they thought they HAD to have, He withdrew and put them into the wilderness.

One thing the book says is, "In time you may come to the place where you hate the very thing that you had to have." God gave them enough meat to eat to the point where "it comes out of your nostrils and becomes loathesome to you." He gave them so much to eat that they choked on it! In the book MacDonald mentions how single adults who loved the Lord have prayed for Him to bring along the right person and how they have pleaded "I have to have a husband", "I can't be happy until He meets this need" and then she goes out on her own and later he sees her in his office only to find out that she has made the worst mistake of her life and how miserable she is now that she did not wait on the perfect plan of the Lord. "He gave them their request and sent leanness into their soul." He says he has also seen parents struggle with infertility and the burden of wanting children so badly to the point of being demanding. He says how it's not a good thing for a child to be born into a home where the child is more important than God. God doesn't want anything substituted for him and children who have to take God's place have a hard time. So he says "Beware of begging God for non-essentials. In time you may hate what you had to have." And remember that enough is never enough. Once God gives us the mate we want, then that's not enough, we want the nice house and the nice cars, then that isn't enough, we want to have kids and then that's not enough we need more money b/c the kids are too expensive and now we have to have a bigger house and the list goes on and on. It never stops.

Then the next chapter shifts to replacing that couvetous attitude with an attitude of contentment. There was one main thing that jumped off the page when I read it. It simply said, "When we expect to be satisfied with the basics, God will often surprise us with treats." I just love that! It really puts it into perspective doesn't it? I mean, if we just sit back and let God take care of us, He will surely bless us with something wonderful because that's what He wants to do. He wants us to live for Him and be secure in Him so that He can love us and pour out His blessings on us. He doesn't want to punish us or "put leanness into our souls" but if we beg and beg for it, then He like our earthly fathers will have to teach us a lesson. Sorry for the long post, but this little lesson was something I needed to get my attitude jump-started in the right direction and I thought I would share just in case someone else needed it too!

Quarter of a Century....ALREADY?!

Ok...so...It just hit me today that next week (the 29th) is my 25th birthday.....do I need to repeat....25th birthday and I honestly can't believe it! I mean, seriously, where has the time gone? Just yesterday I was a 15 yr old freshman in high school learning how to drive and now....now I'm a so-called "grown up" who has finished college and is now working full-time as a nurse!! When did this happen?? I can remember being younger and people older than me were turning 21 and I thought I would NEVER make it to that age and here I am turning 25! That's a quarter of a century! I'm sorry to beat it to a pulp, but this is serious business for me! I think the reason this is a big deal for me is because in some ways I am where I want to be in my life and in other ways, I'm not.
You know when you're young you sometimes plan your life out? Well, that was me! I always thought that I would get married young (almost did!), have kids young and start my family at a young age (meaning around 20-21). I know most people would think I'm crazy for thinking that, but that was just me. In other terms, I finished nursing school (successfully) and have been working for almost 2 years now, but I don't have the other part....I don't have the marriage, the kids, etc. I have had older ladies tell me that they wish they could be in my situation i.e. young, single, no obligations, nothing holding me down. I must admit the way they make it sound, I do have it good, BUT that's not always what I want. Sometimes I DO want kids b/c it seems like EVERYONE around me at this exact moment is having them! and I do mean EVERYONE!As cliche as it sounds, isn't it funny how we always want what we can't have? That always seems to be true with me. I want to be content with what I do have. I'm more likely to be happier that way. There is a song by Switchfoot called "This Is Your Life" and it is in line with what I'm talking about. It simply states

"This is your life,
are you who you want to be?
This is your life
are you who you want to be?
This is your life,
is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger
and you had everything to lose"

Kinda makes you stop and think doesn't it?

I Believe

This is an email I received and thought I would share it. Lots of these statements (in my opinion are true). Read each one of them and see what you think. Some of them really make you stop and think.



I BELIEVE
Author Unknown
Jan 2 2009

A Birth Certificate shows we were born. A Death Certificate shows wedied. Pictures show we lived!


I Believe...That just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other.And just because they don't argue, doesn't mean they do love each other.


Believe...That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.


I Believe...That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.


I Believe...That true friendship continues to grow, even the longest distance.Same goes for true love.


I Believe....That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.


I Believe...That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.


I Believe...That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.


I Believe...That you can keep going long after you think you can't.


I Believe...That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.


I Believe...That either you control your attitude or it controls you.


I Believe...That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.


I Believe...That money is a lousy way of keeping score.


I Believe...That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.


I Believe...That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down,will be the ones to help you get back up.


I Believe...That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.


I Believe...That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.


I Believe...That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.


I Believe...That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.


I Believe...That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but, we are responsible for who we become.


I Believe...That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.


I Believe...Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.


I Believe...That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.


I Believe...That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.


I Believe...That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.


I Believe...That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I Believe...The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, we just make the most of everything.



Now, I will continue with "what's going on with me". As some of you may know, I started training for a new job in December. I actually started working 2 weeks ago in the clinic and it has been SO hard! The dialysis clinic I am working in is in Valley, AL, so they are on eastern time. I work four 10 hour shifts and have to get up each morning at 3 AM to be at work at 4 AM (5 their time). I am on my feet the ENTIRE time, which is fine, it's just a big change from my other job. I like that I actually feel like I'm doing something and doing lots of work, but my body is just NOT taking to it too well at all! I am tired everyday even if I go to bed at 7 the night before (8 hrs of sleep). It has just been wearing on me and I honestly don't know what to do. I don't know if it was a mistake to take this job out of desperation or if I was supposed to. I believe that God gives us opportunities for a reason. Maybe I was put in this position for a reason, I just haven't figured out why yet. I like the people I work with and I like the patients. Alot of them have already taken to me pretty well and like me and want me to stay, and I must say I like being around them, BUT I just don't know if my body will ever get used to getting up at 3 am everyday. Anyways...enough about my babbling!



I love the show Sex and the City. I know it probably isn't the best show to watch, but I love it. I was watching some of the DVDs the other day and Carrie (Sarah Jessica Parker) said something that I really liked. She said,

"Hope for the best, prepare for the worst and who knows, you just might be pleasantly surprised."

I thought that was a great statement because alot of times I think I expect to much out of people or situations I am in. I am trying to teach myself NOT to do that, but sometimes it's hard when you crave so much.

Miles Oliver King!

Proud parents Kyle and Lee King (some of my best and greatest friends) welcomed Miles Oliver King on January 8th. He weighed 7 lbs, 9 oz and is 20 inches long. I haven't been able to visit them at the hospital because Lee has been extremely tired and they are trying to get Miles to feeding a little better. I simply cannot wait to see them and hold the little guy in my arms and introduce myself to him as "Auntie Amy" ha! I will post more pics as soon as I am able to visit! CONGRATS Lee and Kyle!

Forgiveness and Forgetness...is there such a thing as both?

Forgive and Forget has been on my mind alot lately. I don't really know why. Maybe it's because it's a new year and I'm thinking about all the things I want to TRY and do right this year and I'm thinking about all the wrongs I did last year. Forgiveness (I've come to realize) can be a touchy subject with some people,but it's something that people NEED to think about. Forgiveness really is a form of love and aren't we commanded in the B-I-B-L-E to "love one another. As I have loved you" (John 13:34)? The Bible also says:

"As the heavens are high above the earth, so great is His mercy toward those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us."
Psalm 103:11-12

I know that we, as humans, sometimes find it VERY hard to forgive someone once they have wronged us no matter what they have done to hurt us. Sometimes we may even think that we have forgiven someone, but then we quickly find out that we TRULY haven't because we bring whatever wrong they have done back up AGAIN. I found this and thought it was pretty good at explaining a little bit about forgiveness.

"One of my favorite definitions of forgiveness is "giving up your right to punish". That always seemed to make good sense to me because my natural bent when hurt is to punish the one who has done the hurting. Can you relate? Sort of that "eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth" thing, you know. That makes perfect sense to me until I'm the one who has anything against me to send it away from me and give up her right to punish me. You see, we all want forgiveness. It is a blessed state. That is why it is so gratifying to know that God has forgiven us. He has sent our offenses far away from us by putting them on His Son, Jesus Christ. He also has given up His right to punish us. We are forgiven. That is what makes us members of His kingdom--His kingdom of forgiveness. The only catch is that, once we are members of this kingdom, we are instructed to forgive as we have been forgiven ("And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you.-Ephesians 4:32). It was one of the benefits we received when we came in and one of our responsibilities as we continue to live as kingdom citizens. Forgiveness never will be based on "feelings". Rarely does anyone feel like forgiving. The choice to forgive is based on what has been done to you--nothing more, nothing less. You choose it and keep on choosing it until one day it is truth in your soul. Once that happens, the strangest thing occurs: You will feel blessed!" ---Jan Silvious

Most people that know me, know that I LOVE Grey's Anatomy. Here is a quote from Meredith that sort of goes along with this subject.

---"In life, only one thing is certain, apart from death and taxes. No matter how hard you try, no matter how good your intentions, you are going to make mistakes. You're going to hurt people. You're going to get hurt. And if you ever want to recover... there's really only one thing you can say.Forgive and forget. That's what they say. It's good advice, but it's not very practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal. And the most we can hope for, is that one day we'll be lucky enough to forget." ---Meredith Grey



I like this quote because I think my feelings are in line with hers on this one. Like she says, in life, you are going to make mistakes, it's just our human nature. And painfully, with those mistakes we end up hurting not only ourselves, but others as well. You're right, it's not fair if someone wrongs us, or if we end up hurting them (even if it's by default). But the point is, we all need to learn to forgive. Like Meredith says, it doesn't seem practical because the first thing that comes to our minds is "how can I get back at them?" or "what can I do to hurt them?". It's the only way we can all try to get along, and you will never heal if you don't forgive. The way it was put to me one time is if you can't let go of what someone has done to you, they basically have power over you. Which makes sense to me because if you think about it that person may never know that you are mad or upset, so therefore, in the end you are only hurting yourself. I have also heard that you may think you have forgiven someone, but the true test is "if you keep beating them for it". Basically, if you keep bringing up things they did, or trying to get back at them and make them hurt the way they have hurt you, then you are not over it yet and you haven't TRULY forgiven them. A lot of times the hardest part is forgetting. Do we ever really forget?? I have certainly had to deal with this. Sometimes just not being able to forget is reason enough not to be able to forgive, but that's where God comes in. We can't do it all by ourselves, BUT it IS a commandment from God that we forgive others as He has forgiven us. Think of it this way, life is too short not to be happy. Are you really and truly happy if you have built up a hatred and resentment towards someone for something they did to you in the PAST? There is nothing you can do about it now, so the best thing to do is try to move forward. Unfortunately I guess that may mean letting go of whoever or whatever hurt you in order to truly forgive that person and have a peace in your heart about it. But look at it this way, forgiveness is probably one of the highest forms of love. It seems to me that if you can learn to overcome that obstacle, that's TRUE LOVE. "To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you".

Enjoying my free time and learning a lesson or two..

I started my new job December 8th working at a dialysis clinic. Over the past month I have gone through alot of basic training about dialysis. It is a very specialized area and I have realized that I have tons to learn. BUT the good thing about me taking this job so close to the holidays is that I have had pretty good hours and a good bit of free time to just relax, enjoy the holidays and just have some ME time. I realized that I love to read but never seem to be able to find the time to. So during this time I decided to read the Twlight Series.

I had been hearing about the Twilight series obivously because of the movie, but I had a few friends tell me that it was AWESOME. I ABSOLUTELY loved it! I started reading it and couldn't put it down! I finished the WHOLE series in about a week or week and a half (and these are not thin books!).I even got my mom reading them as well! I highly recommend it to anyone simply searching for a good read.

Yesterday I went to see "Yes Man" with Jim Carrey. If anyone has seen it, I think they will

agree that it has different levels of meaning. This movie is basically about a guy who is lonely, sulking over his divorce and doesn't want to make any commitments to people. He is scared that if he makes himself vulnerable/available people won't like what they see. So he attends this seminar in which he makes a promise to say "yes" to everything. This in turn, leads him on a whirlwind of an adventure meeting people, doing things, opening doors that otherwise wouldn't have been opened if he hadn't said "yes". That's basically the jist of the story, I won't go into any details in case you want to see the movie for yourself. After seeing this movie, I got to thinking on more of a spiritual level. How God sometimes opens doors that we aren't even aware of, it is just our choice to choose to go through the opened door or to shut it. Say someone invites you to go somewhere and you simply deny the invitation because "you don't feel good" or "you are busy" (when really you aren't); although it just seems like a normal activity to go hang out or do something. It may be God's way of opening a door and you didn't even realize it! I can't think of how many times I have done this. I could be missing out on an opportunity to be blessed and I simply said "I'm too busy". WOW! It just really hit home with me. Not that I will say "yes" to everything, but that I will be more open to other possibilities.

It's Time to Walk On...

I know I have already posted a blog today, BUT this is something I had written on a facebook note and wanted to share it as a blog. Hope it makes sense!

"Walk On" by U2

And love
Is not the easy thing
The only baggage
That you can bring
Not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind

And if the darkness is to keep us apart
And if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
And if your glass heart should crack
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on
Walk on
What you got, they can't steal it
No they can't even feel it
Walk onWalk on
Stay safe tonight

You're packing a suitcase for a place
None of us has been
A place that has to be believed
To be seen

You could have flown away
A singing bird
In an open cage
Who will only fly
Only fly for freedom

Walk on, Walk on
What you gotYou can't deny it
Can't sell it or buy it
Walk on
Walk on
You stay safe tonight
And I know it aches
How your heart it breaks
You can only take so much
Walk onWalk on

HomeHard to know what it is
If you never had one

HomeI can't say where it is
But I know I'm going
HomeThat's where the hurt is

And I know it aches
And your heart it breaks
You can only take so much

Walk on
Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind
All that you fashion
All that you make
All that you build
All that you break
All that you measureA
ll that you feel
All this you can leave behind
All that you reason
All that you care
It's only time

Ok...so here goes another one of MY "lyric interpretations". As I have said before (probably) many people interpret song lyrics in many different ways. I happened to hear this song on my iPod while I was on my way home from work the other day and rememered how much I liked it. It really is a great song with quite a lot of meaning. Actually I see a couple different meanings in this song.
Basically this song is talking about moving on. Walking away from something that you feel you can't leave behind. Something that haunts you everyday. Maybe you made a terrible mistake and that caused alot of hurt to alot of people and you are having trouble forgiving yourself. I know, that if you've got Jesus in your heart and have asked forgiveness, he has seperated your sins "as far as the east is to the west", so it's time to WALK ON. Maybe you have recently lost a loved one, someone that was really close to you and everywhere you go you are constantly reminded of that person. I know the last thing you want to hear is that they are in a better place, but the TRUTH is, they ARE, so..it's time to WALK ON. It's time to stop beating yourself up about stuff. As cliche as it sounds, that's why it's called the PAST, so leave it there. That has become my philosophy.

One of my favorite parts in the song is where it says,
"You're packing a suitcase for a place
None of us has been
A place that has to be believed
To be seen" In my opinion, they are referring to heaven here. A place NONE OF US HAS BEEN and a place that HAS TO BE BELIEVED TO BE SEEN. WOW! that's definately heaven. If you are a christian, that's almost a definition of faith. We can't physically see Jesus, but we see him in little everyday joys that we get and that shows us that there is a heaven. It also says,
"And loveIs not the easy thing
The only baggage
That you can bring
Not the easy thing
The only baggage you can bring
Is all that you can't leave behind" Basically saying love (and your faith in God) is the only thing you will be taking with you to heaven. I think that's SO neat! So, whatever it is that you are holding on to and you feel it won't let you go, it's time for you to WALK ON and let it go. Because.......
"I know it aches, And your heart it breaks
You can only take so much
Walk on
Leave it behind
You've got to leave it behind"

2009...Wow! Time flies when you get older!

This is my first blog. I have followed other people's blogs and thought it was a really neat concept. Although we can always count on the ever true FACEBOOK (and myspace of course) to really keep us up to date on everyone. But to me, there is something different about the whole "blogger" thing that made me want to try it. First of all, you can personalize it and sort of keep people that are important to you up to date on what's going on in your life (especially those we don't get to see all the time). I also see it as an "outlet" for me to be able to write down my thoughts, feelings etc about any certain subject. So...anyways..without further ado, I will get on with my ACTUAL post.


So...2009 is actually here! I simply cannot believe it. I think back to 10 years ago, 1999, and what I was doing. It honestly seems like it wasn't that long ago that I was a freshman in high school and now, 10 years later, I am what most people would consider "a grown up". I got to thinking about this whole process we as humans go through. We start a new year, go through all the joys of spring and summer, then comes football season in the fall and of course, everyone CAN'T WAIT til Christmas. I know I put so much into the christmas holidays with decorations, getting christmas gifts etc and then it seems that in a flash it's all starting over again. Maybe noone else sees it that way, but it just occured to me. This year I got sorta sad after Christmas was over. I don't really know why, but I did. It didn't feel like 2008 should be over. Don't get me wrong, I could have had a better 2008 and I am looking forward to 2009, but I just got sad, nostalgic in a way. I thought about previous years and what I went through and with whom. It's weird how our lives change so quickly. One year you're hanging out with a certain group of people doing certain things, then within 6 months your life totally changes. Whether it's graduating & getting a job, getting married, having a baby, the death of a loved one. Things just change. Sometimes not necessarily for the better or for the worse, just for the different. I used to be terrified of change, but as I get older, I realize it's just part of life and change is inevitable. Things are going to come your way to force you to make a decision that will potentially change the rest of your life. Anyways..I hope everyone had a Happy New Year and I can't wait to see what God (and 2009) has in store for me!